“I feel like for the first time in my life, I played safe and it’s killing me.”
The fan twirled above, bringing a slight breeze to the warm room. It had been a year since all of us girls had sat in the living room together dreaming about what the future would hold. It seemed as if life had stood still and yet everything had changed at the same time. But that didn’t matter, we were all together on Guam again.
I told them how close I had come to buying an underwater housing for my camera a month earlier. It had been a dream for years and with my trip to Hawaii and Guam it seemed like the perfect time to turn the dream into a reality. But I was watching where I invested my money. Although I knew having the case would challenge me as a photographer and bring a new opportunity to clients, I just didn’t know if it would be well received. And so I once again, I closed the deal and told myself to wait, someday but not today.
Have you ever felt God speak right to your soul? As if He was whispering in your ear? I felt that. I prayed for wisdom. I knew buying the case would be the right decision.
But, I took the safe road and updated my wide angle lens instead. It seemed to be the more sensible decision. There wasn’t a day that I didn’t ask myself if I made the right decision.
Bri looked me in the eyes and said, “buy it.” Kelli and Katie backed her up, I was almost convinced. It took me a week of constant prayers to get the courage to email Sean from SPL Water Housings and tell him to send the the paypal invoice.
Having my own business is incredible. Being my own boss is even better. But there are several things about owning a business that, quite honestly, scare me. My income is dependent on if I have sessions and weddings. I don’t get paid vacation, I am not guaranteed a particular salary, and equipment is expensive.
But there is one thing I am guaranteed, and that is, God will take care of me no matter what. He expects us to step out in faith, He loves when we delight in Him, and He wants us to expect great things from Him.
When He promps you, don’t ignore it. Don’t take the safe road, like I did, only to realize that I missed out in weeks of awesomeness. Whatever it is God may be prompting you to, know that He will take care of you.
I don’t know where this adventure will take me. It sure makes me excited – almost the same feeling I get when I see chocolate chip cookies.